140423 held against my will….

140423 held against my will…. I was taken… I was held. Not allowed to leave. Not allowed to talk to anyone outside the house. I was trying to learn the ropes on what set him/dbfxh off and what didn’t. All while still looking for a way too get away. I tried. And that’s when I…

140402 Birthday. Life hurts.

My birthday was recently.  It only solidified my feelings of loneliness and my feelings of isolation/the shell shock. My mom called two days early to wish a Happy Birthday. It felt like a call of civil duty. She didn’t acknowledge much of anything I’d said.  If I didn’t know better I’d have thought I was…

140331 Isolation

I’ve been having a pretty terrible time lately trying to figure out social cues, clues, and all those monotonous little things that occur during social situations and engagements. Like how do you know when it’s your turn to talk when you’re in a group? And how do you not be the silent akward one?  What…

140213 idk

I have soo many questions and no answers. My mind is now all over the place. I can’t really suspect new guy of alll the outlandish horrible things that have crossed by my mind… can I? He’s not a bad guy. I feel geniune love from him. Don’t I? How can i feel such love…

140210 Empty emotions

I had no marked emotions yesterday. It was just like any other day. My friend made me laugh. People were pleasant. I was pleasant albeit extremely tired. It was just any other day at the docs, and any other time at an office filling forms. It all hit me today. How could he have done…